Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Rainbows and Hope

I’m going on my third week of being sick and it’s starting to get me down. I feel fortunate that I don’t get sick very often but right now I think I’m making up for it. Every evening I go to bed hoping to feel better in the morning and every morning I wake up feeling almost as crappy as the day before.

I haven’t even managed to get any of my garden planted so I’m losing plants almost daily now, I can’t remember when the last time I did any housework was and yesterday I had to drag my ass to the grocery store so my family didn’t starve. L

Yesterday felt like fall all day with the wind and the rain and it really didn’t help with my mood until last evening when Jon told me to look outside and there was the most amazing rainbow I’ve ever seen. I haven’t even held my camera in weeks but I dashed in to get it and managed to snap a couple of shots....

Seriously the most beautiful rainbow I’ve ever seen. We could see both ends of it from our yard. The shots really don’t do it any justice, I didn’t take any time to make sure they were good, I just snapped away so I wouldn’t miss it (and I’m glad I did, rainbows never last as long as you’d like them to).

Seeing the rainbow brought something up in me that I’ve been missing for a few weeks now....hope. For the first time in ages I felt like maybe, just maybe I’m going to feel good again soon. I thought I’d check out my handy dandy symbols book for the heck of it and see what it had to say about rainbows. According to “The Secret Language of Signs”, by Denise Linn seeing a rainbow means:

“Throughout the world the rainbow is one of the most universal signs of blessing. A rainbow blesses your ventures, your relations and yourself. It is a message from spirit to you that you are going in the right direction and that your path is blessed and guided. It is a very powerful sign signifying joy, celebration and completion. If you have been involved in a difficulty, this is a sign of a completion and new hope. It signals the end of despair and difficulty.”

I’ll take it! Here’s to blessings and the end of difficulty. I’m going to assume it means I’m on the mend and hope for the best!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Day Time T.V.

I don’t get sick very often and now I know why. Day time T.V. is absolutely terrible. I’m not much of a television watcher regularly but there is nothing else to do when you’re sick.

If you’re interested in talk T.V. you have tons of choice....

  • The Talk
  • Steven and Chris
  • Anderson
  • The Marilyn Denis show
  • Cityline
  • The Rachel Ray show (who knew she was still on T.V!)
  • Live with Kelly
  • Ellen
  • and Oprah if you happen to get OWN

and if you’re thinking of moving...

  • House Hunters
  • House Hunters International
  • Property Virgins
  • Buy Herself

or if you enjoy yoga...

  • Yoga with Padme
  • Yoga Daytime
  • Yoga and Meditation
  • Yoga with Pilates
  • Early Morning Yoga
  • Afternoon Yoga

But if you’re interested in thinking don’t bother turning on the television; you’re better off picking up a book.

Here’s to being grateful for a new book order that came yesterday and to getting better as soon as humanly possible.

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Procrastination and Wasted time

“How you do anything is how you do everything.” ~ Brooke Castillo

I heard this quote the other day on one of the recordings from The Self Love Revolution (theselfloverevolution.com) and I can’t get it out of my head. The more I think about it the more it appears to be true, and that makes me sad and mad because I realize I have a pattern and it’s not a good one.

I might regret this; but here goes - I think about doing something, and then I think about it a little more, and then a lot more and then I usually do something towards what I’m going to do that’s very small and then I think some more (all the while telling myself that I need to make sure I’ve thought it through thoroughly), then I distract myself from whatever it is by playing computer games or reading or the ever popular Facebook and only when I’ve procrastinated the absolute most I can I do whatever it is that needs to be done and because I’ve put it off for so long it likely needs to be done in a hurry or all at once and then I end up exhausted and overwhelmed.

What I’ve described above is how I do everything from deciding on dinner, to weeding the garden, to deciding on a holiday or taking a course. It doesn’t matter whether it’s a big important thing I need to do or the most mundane household chore. My pattern is my pattern is my pattern. Brooke is right when she says how I do anything is how I do everything.

Writing it down and seeing it in front of my eyes makes me realize how much time I waste working up to stuff; no wonder I never get anything done. I’ve always been aware I procrastinate but I apparently wasn’t aware of exactly how much.

I’ve written it down, acknowledged it and now what? How do I change a shitty pattern that clearly needs changing? I’m reminded of what John Assaraf told me about trading my life for my dreams....right now I’m trading my life for procrastination and wasted time.

Good to know....or not, I haven’t decided yet. L

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Caught in the Act!

I love birds and I have several feeders around the house. I find it so relaxing to watch the birds and their antics. Lately one of my feeders seems to be perpetually empty and at first I thought it was just because it has a different type of seed in it than the others. I assumed the birds preferred the black sunflower seeds over the regular all purpose seed.

I was wrong!

Yesterday I discovered what’s really going on....

Uh oh..I think she sees me.
I'm just going to make a run for it.
It's a long way down but here I gooooo!

Monday, June 11, 2012

Catch Up Time

It feels like it’s been ages since I’ve posted anything. It wasn’t for lack of trying that’s for sure. Our internet has been down for a couple of weeks, but I think we’re good to go now....or at least we’d better be!

Over the last couple of weeks we’ve been busy around here. Jon’s been working on the house and I’ve been working on the garden. We finished up a large project for work and Jon’s started a big deck project. Bradley had his first paintball tournament and Hunter seems to have a bladder infection. Last week marked the anniversary of my father’s death and his birthday, so that was a little tough.

It has taken me WAY longer than it should have but I’ve finally finished our landscape plan for the yard closest to the house. Our property is basically cut in half with a 3.5 acre field between us and the road and then another 3.5 acres with the house and outbuildings and that's the part I’ve completed. I have big plans for the field but they’ll have to wait until we win a lottery!! In the mean time we have a ton of stuff to do right at the house. There’s a new bed going in and my earth and mulch are coming tomorrow and once they get here I have new plants to get settled and older ones to move.

There is very little I enjoy more than being out in the garden so with that in mind I’m headed out to do some clean up. We lost a big old branch off one of our willows during the last wind storm and it still needs cleaned up.

Here’s a bit of what’s going on in the garden these days.....

Ahh....lazy dog days!
My columbine is doing well this year.
They might be weeds, but I don't discriminate,
all flowers are welcome.    

I’ll keep you posted on the new beds and the pond development... Stay tuned!