Thursday, September 26, 2013

Friday Favourites - September 27, 2013

The flowers Jon bought me for our anniversary were absolutely beautiful. I love purple and I love dahlias so this is just about perfect!

My favourite quote this week:

“There is no greater agony than bearing an untold story inside you.” 

Maya Angelou

Lot's of goodies to share with you this week!

I know some of you have already seen this but it's so moving I wanted to share it! 

Connie rocks! That is all :-)


This is how I want to be when I'm 90!


A Place to Start with Pema Chodron


What are your thoughts on This?


Here's a little amusement for the week.

Can you believe this?


I'm seriously loving this song this week!


Just FYI and another one.


And a wee bit of serious.

Have a great weekend everyone...see you next week!

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Being Vulnerable

I've watched Brene Brown on TED, and I've read her books (they're all awesome), and I've tried - I really have.

Being vulnerable is HARD.

I'm not good at it.

Last Tuesday was my wedding anniversary and each year when it comes I want to express to Jon just what he means to me and how much I cherish him and our life together. I always have grand intentions and each year I fail miserably.

I dream about finding just the right gift that will express everything that I feel and don't know how to say. Stupid - I know; but that doesn't stop me from wishing it. I try to figure out some way to actually get the feelings from my heart to my mouth and that never works. 'I love you' seems so regular and daily and while it's true it's not enough. Next I try to think of some action that will fill the bill. Nope - that never happens either.

Every year I fall back on Hallmark to help me say what's in my heart and although they're often meaningful they just don't capture exactly what I need to say and express.

Every year I'm also inspired by the way Jon is able to do all the things I can't seem to manage. He's always creative and thoughtful. He always does just the right thing to show me how much he loves me.

This year he drove from where he was working to where my car was parked at school and left me flowers. He sent me a text telling me to check out my car and when I saw the flowers tears came to eyes and I was overcome with love. He'll likely be embarrassed that I'm pointing out how romantic he is; and I'm ok with that. (I hope he will be too).

I've been thinking about it all week - about how perfect his idea was. It fully expressed to me how much he loves me. It's also left me feeling raw and more emotional than usual. I don't know why it's so scary and uncomfortable for me to be shown love or to feel it the way I do for my amazing guy. But it does. It makes me vulnerable in a way that only love can.

So rather than hoping for one big idea for our anniversary next year I'm going to give him the gift of staying open to feelings of fragility and vulnerability every day. I'm not sure I'll do it every day but it is my intention to be present to my feelings for him and our life together EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I know this won't be easy, I know I won't be able to actually do it each and every day, I know that some days I'll want to punch him in the head and some days he'll feel the same towards me; but I want to feel a tangible connection with the man I love and the only way is through vulnerability. So each morning from now on I'll gently remind myself what my intention is and act from that scary wonderful place. I'll also remind myself that I can do this and that we're worth it.

Friday, September 20, 2013

Photo Friday

I feel myself getting completely wrapped up in school and school related thinking and while that's a good thing I also want to make sure I continue to do the things that I love the most.

So with that in mind I'm going to start a new feature here - Photo Friday; where I'll post a photo or two each Friday. This way I know I will continue with my passion for photography. 

Some weeks my photos might be artsy fartsy ones and sometimes they'll just be simple snaps of what's going on in my life. Whatever it takes to keep my camera in my hands through the changes in my life!

I'm not sure what it is about this photo, but I just love it. It's one of my favourites from this summer. It feels so relaxing Sunday afternoon to me.

P.S. Friday Favourties has moved to Awen Wellness, I hope you'll come and see what good stuff I found this week!

Friday Favourites

I didn't take this photo this week but as I was looking through some of my photos from this summer this one stood out. She looks so bold staring back at me, don't you think?

My favourite quote from this week:

“In a gentle way, you can shake the world.” ~Mahatma Gandhi 


Some of you know how much I love books...and some of you also know how much I like tattoos...Check these out!


Here's your heartwarming for the week :-)


I love this man. I wish I could do what he's done!


Sometimes it's really hard being a woman...


And since I'm studying nutrition here's a food related one:


Here's a funny to finish off the week. This is HILARIOUS!

Have a great weekend everyone! See you next week :-)

Monday, September 16, 2013

Love One Another

These last few weeks have been crazy stressful. Bradley and I getting ready for school, getting him to Kingston and settled into his dorm, getting Shane out of his house in Kingston and then trying to get used to the daily grind again.

It's been many years since I had to get myself up and moving and out of the house. It's been many years since I've had homework and papers to write. It's been many (many) years since I had a house with no kids in it.

Change is hard.

And it's made me a wee bit cranky and short tempered.

On Sunday Jon and I went out for our weekly breakfast date and I could feel myself being uptight and irritable. I bit his head off for absolutely nothing besides tension relief and immediately felt even shittier. Looking around the restaurant we go to every week something caught my eye and just like that my mood was changed.

We often realize how something small can piss us off or ruin a perfectly good day, but we rarely pay attention to the little things that change our moods or make our days.

This was mine yesterday.....

Sometimes it really is that simple.

Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Confession Time

I have a confession to make.

I've said it before but I've always mumbled it, or said it while you were speaking, or turned away with my mouth full.

This time I'm saying it loudly and proudly because I know you can't change what you don't acknowledge. And I really want to change.

I suffer from perfectionism. BIG TIME.

There I said it. (Phew)

It's something I've struggled with for as long as I can remember and unfortunately I've passed it down to my children.

The buck stops here! I'm saying it, I'm acknowledging it and I'm going to change it. Slowly and compassionately for sure - but I'm going to do my very best to ease away from...

  • the need to be perfect
  • the need to have everyone else be perfect
  • the need to always act perfectly
  • the need to have my life go exactly the way I think it should so it's perfect too

(I could probably go on - but I think you've got the picture) ;-)

Maybe you share my need for perfection and maybe you also share it's first cousin - you know...GUILT.

I have another confession to make - I ate beer nuts. Quite a few of them, and they were really, really good! And now I feel guilty because a person who's studying nutrition should eat perfectly...right? I mean that's what my annoying inner dictator is telling me.

But I'm not perfect - I'm a human who eats pretty well most of the time and happens to enjoy beer nuts from time to time.

And I'm trying to be OK with that!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Summer's almost done

Summer is almost done for another year. The kids are back in school - I'm back in school and the days are getting shorter and a little chillier.

Jon and I still have a lot to do around here before winter sets in but for now I'm still engrossed in my flowers and gardens.

I mean, how can I not be.....